The Blue Rose

The Gift """"""""""""""" The shell sat there smiling, As the core beat strong far away, And hence was accomplished the greatest trick, No, no trickery it was ,it was magic All the miles he had pushed, Of all the pain that was endured.. This was the fruit,this was the all, For finally a way had been conjured To give a final gift,the parting gift, To live on finally with her,within her.. One in body and one in soul And for a prize so big,such a  small toll For her eyes will still see the morning shine, And the heart beating the life in her will be mine.. I have nothing to lose I leave content, Glad to have chosen this end…                                            ---Soumitra

The Sparks In My Head The colour of blood is red... not the bright one, oozing with life, but a rustic, dirty tone... Once bright, through which the breath once flowed... Neither warm nor flowing, but a viscous stale, and red for once what carried life around, is now infected, cold and dead. What happened to the memories though, I guess the sparks last longer than the beats, what was once a living loving heart, is now reduced to a piece of meat, with a lust to reanimate Rotting in my own grave, putrid is the smell of earth, the only pure thing left  is this undying fatal love  An arrow through the chest,  shot through my heart, the wounds were mortal enough, for my mortal self ... and yet the cogs keep turning, as the engine roars a death bellow, the cog-works refuse to stop, and just keep on turning... The last sparks of thought, washing through my neural network, flashing frantically to find a voice, to l...

আমার প্রাণ  নিমিশে নিমিশে কাটছে দিন  ভাব পাল্টে চলেছে পদে পদে দাঁড়িয়ে দেখছি এই পতন , নিজে চোখে চোখে  তুমি থেকেও তুমি নেই  আমার ঘর ফাঁকা ফাঁকা ,  জীবন  নির্জন ... তোমার ভালোবাসায় ঘোলাটে হয়ে চলেছে মন ... তোমার এই যে না হয়েও হওয়া , অনেক দিন তো হলো,  পেরিয়ে গেলো কত কাল .. তবুও শেষ হয়না কেন এই জঞ্জাল ... মন হারিয়ে হলাম, আত্মহারা  প্রাণ এ লিখেছিলাম তোমার নাম , ওই নাম মুছতে এ হয়তো , এইবার দিতে হবে এই প্রাণ .. -সৌমিত্র 

Moon Of My Life What would it be like? when my moon peeks in, once more..in my window will it be as bright, as it used to be? or will its shine be covered, by the passing clouds, which take forever to pass will I be awake that long... I hope I dont miss out when it comes looking ... or will it be the smoke this time, that will blind me, the black smoke of my funeral, a pyre lit by my own two hands.. will it wait?or swim away like a koi ever elusive in the muddy sky... I do hope that it does show up though coz there are questions,too many to ask away in a night,  I hope it stays a bit longer this time long enough for us to count all the stars long enough to trace out all the galaxies and just long enough maybe, for us to start knowing each other...

मुझसे दूर तुम चली तो गयी थी लेकिन, कुछ भी भुला ना पाया था मैं, तुम्हारी याद में, तुम्हे ढूंढ़ता हुआ , फिर एक बार उन गलियों में आज आया था मैं लेकिन ना तुम मिले, ना मिले 'हम' वहां बस एक सन्नाटा सा था, उस भीड़ में , जहाँ कभी हाथ थामे चले थे हम, धूल की एक चादर थी,कोई निशान भी न मिले.. याद है वो नाव , और पुरे चाँद के निचे हम कुछ डरे डरे से ,छुपे छुपे से हम , पानी में भटकती वो चुप चाप सी नाव, आज किनारे रखी थी, उदास ज़्यादा, इंतज़ार में कम की कोई उसे फिरसे ले जाए उन लहरों में, लेकिन अब वो चाँद कहाँ, ना ही थी वो हवा एक तूफ़ान सा उठा है, काले बादल हैं हर जगह इस पुरे हलाहल में,बस वो नाव ही है एक,हमारा गवाह शायद अब वो समय आकर भी नहीं आ पायेगा ना तुम , तुम रहे, ना मैं , मैं रह पाउँगा  .. पता नहीं ऐसा कैसे हो गया.. और क्यों, पर सब भुलाकर भी,मैं कुछ भूल ना पाउँगा  ..

अधूरी बात ------------------ जो होते होते रेह गयी बात .. उसे अधूरी ही रहने दो क्या हुआ जो न मिले तुम, अकेला था, अकेले ही रेहने दो उमीदों से कभी बनी नहीं, ख्वाहिशें ने ही रुलाया हमेशा अब जो तुम नहीं,एक सुकून सा है, ये जो सुकून है,इसे ऐसे ही रेहने दो.. धुप तो नहीं,बादल बहुत मिले, उनकी छाँव मेरे ऊपर है, और इस बारिश में भी एक नशीली बात है.. ये जो नशा है,मुझे इसमें बहने दो.. जो बात अधूरी रेह गयी , उसे अधूरी ही रेहने दो...

Unrequited The anger gone, the faint signs of hatred dissolved all I am left with, is this deep sense of love and resolve that has no room for hate,no room for conflict all my vices vaporising into a mist,all my sorrows uplift my love has reached places ,earlier it never could exist never has it been stronger and needed you the least   for I have realised, all my feelings come from within, it doesnt even need you to be in my life therein... I am a cocoon, waiting to sprout my wing, night or day, butterfly or a moth,or anything, I do not care. for I have decided the flight and there's barely anything to stop the height you are with me or not,suit yourself, your needs,   you dont get to decide,even in the least,my deeds for my feelings thrive in the smallest of things keep me out all you want, for I have endured all the stings what's left is ,is only this raw resolve, an aimless goal,a peaceful absolve, as no matter wh...

बारिश  बारिश आज गिर रही थी बाहर भीगा हुआ मेरा मन था बहार एक तूफ़ान सा उठा था  मेरे अंदर का तूफ़ान, वो क्या काम था ...? एक भटकता हुआ मुसाफिर , जिसे राह में कोई मिला था  आज उस मुसाफिर और मेरी रहे भी अलग हैं , आसमान से बरसता , वो क्या मेरा गम था...? समझना चाहिए था मुझे, अब तो आदत भी हो गयी है ऐसी  फिर भी पीछे मुड़ के देख रहा हूँ, क्या जिसे खोया , वही मेरा हमसफ़र था ...?

Pathos What is this childish yearn...? What is this relentless charm...? Why do I always put my heart  on a path to  wanton harm... Why do you do this to my heart? Why strike the chords at all, when you're not going to finish the song, Why get me flying... just to see me fall?

  Untitled    Let the thunders roar,let the storms pass by.. Let the skies tear down..and the black clouds fill the sky.. As the gods of destruction dance up in the realms, A nd the world shakes up in mighty rumbles.. You in me ...me in you shall stand there hand in hand .. Together and alone in the profound wonder.. Your soul flowing through mine and my spirit enshrouding you. All my strength is now yours and all your grace is mine.. Together in this inferno ..we stand in our own paradise...

An Ode To My Love Ask a king,a diamond's worth, And he will say it's a stone Ask the same to a beggar, And he will fight for it to the bone The feeling of having it all, only to lose, The ruins ,on which my throne sits How can I let know you all, That i have taken my hits No matter what,how much I want, I am losing against the tide of time, Helpless and alone in my endeavours, How do I atone for all my crimes... I have no way,to know if things can be mend, How do I know,I deserve everything again All I know,is that there is so much sorrow, So much loss,so much going on in the brain With every cell in there,I wish for you, every breath in me,in your name If only I could make you believe That things won't be the same... That the love never went away, After all this time I know for sure now, That the sorrow has shaped me That it has molded me somehow I know I am not alone in this fire I can now sense your hu...