Moon Of My Life

What would it be like?
when my moon peeks in,
once more..in my window
will it be as bright,
as it used to be?
or will its shine be covered,
by the passing clouds,
which take forever to pass
will I be awake that long...
I hope I dont miss out
when it comes looking ...
or will it be the smoke this time,
that will blind me,
the black smoke of my funeral,
a pyre lit by my own two hands..
will it wait?or swim away like a koi
ever elusive in the muddy sky...

I do hope that it does show up though
coz there are questions,too many
to ask away in a night,
 I hope it stays a bit longer this time
long enough for us to count all the stars
long enough to trace out all the galaxies
and just long enough maybe,
for us to start knowing each other...